Today was brilliant despite feeling down and snappy towards the end of the night, I laughed so hard you know that kind of laughter when you clap your hands while hysterically laughing. I cannot understand how my brain goes from extreme sadness to happiness overnight and sometimes it’s less than that hours or even minutes and it is very unfair to everyone around me. It’s either I’m extremely sad or extremely happy there is no in-between.
I got out of the house attempted to do some shopping but I got uninterested all of a sudden and went into a café and sat for an hour by myself, came back home and hung out with my family.
I baked a cake for my uncle or rather I attempted to, the mixture overflowed and burned and the whole house was cloudy with smoke, I have learnt one thing today and that is if it’s after 11pm do not bake, just don’t!
I am in bed listening to arcade fire it’s almost half past 1 in the morning and no sign of sleep. I feel this peacefulness and quietness in my heart and I am embracing it when I wake up tomorrow I don’t know if this emotional state of mind will continue, I sure hope it does. A girl could get used this ya’ know.