I am really struggling with my mood tonight. I am in a dark and emotional space right now. I want to cry forever, cry it out, cry until it all disappears. I am trying to keep my head above the water, I am caught in the Undertow of this depression and I feel like I am tethered to an anchor and it’s pulling down to the bottom and I am helpless.
I was sitting in the living room with my mum and I just started quietly crying but she was so focused on the movie she didn’t notice. I cannot pin point the exact cause of this mood it’s a culmination of things. This morning I was fine but around 4pm I felt it coming.
Yesterday I slept at 4:30am because I couldn’t sleep or didn’t want to, I don’t know anymore. It’s almost 22:30pm and I am in bed, I took something to help me sleep, tomorrow is another day of the same crap.
I wish there was shelter for this sadness that always finds me nomatter what I do.