In bed with some music on, it’s past 2am and I can’t sleep. I blame the 3 hour nap I had in the afternoon, I was so tired from the chores this morning then I had to nip into town for a bit when I came back home, I just threw myself on the sofa. This whole school thing is really draining my mum and I am definitely carrying this load of guilt on my shoulders. The textbooks are so friggin expensive! We only paid half of the tuition and the other half is due soon.
I am definitely panicking, with the strain I have put my mum on financial wise I HAVE to pass all my courses, there has to be no room for failure, this type of thinking flares up my anxiety like you wouldn’t believe. The semester hasn’t officially started and I am already in this panic mode state, come mid-semester I’ll need daily pep talks from my family just to manage my studies.
Just a month ago I was so excited saying how keen I was for 2014 to get here so I can register blah blah blah now that I’m actually about to get stuck in, I feel so overwhelmed!
Otherwise today was a good day, baked and watched movies with family.