It’s 4:45am and I woke up about an hour ago with the most excruciating migraine. I think it’s time to go to the doctor, I thought it was one of my post-menstrual migraines because of hormone changes and iron deficiency but I am beginning to suspect it’s more than that. Today it’s day 5 of this migraine, just when you think it has subsided it gets worse. I even gave up restriction this weekend and threw in a couple of snacks in my diet and I have been hydrating a lot. It’s funny how good I take care of myself health wise when shit hits the fan. I never eat breakfast but when I feel ill like having this migraine I eat breakfast, it’s like I need a crisis a health scare of some sort just so I can eat 3 meals per day.
The reason I didn’t go to then doctor earlier is because of the scale thing at my doctor’s office, get your bp checked, your temperature then they weigh you… gosh I hate that procedure. My doctor will want to follow up on how I have been doing ED wise. He could comment on how healthy I look and healthy to me means fat or he could say I look unwell and by that he means underweight, all the time I always cross my fingers and hope it’s the latter.
I used to be one of those people who go to the doctor’s for a minor illness or an imagined illness basically hypochondriac tendencies, I accidentally cut my pinkie once with a knife and made my dad take me to the 24 hour because I thought I was bleeding to death, I wasn’t. These days I’d have to be bleeding from every hole in my body or foaming at the mouth before I can even consider going to the doctor.
The migraine seems to have gone away I can still feel it but at least now it’s much better, I took some headache powders. I don’t foresee myself going back to bed, I’m just gonna chill in bed until the sun comes up which should be 2 hours from now. It feels nice and quiet.
I had a weird dream tonight, I dreamt I was giving an eulogy for someone named “Dolly” then I when I went back home a corpse appeared at my gate (which I assumed to be this Dolly) and it opened up it’s arms to hug me and it said “Merry Christmas”, In the dream I was debating whether I should hug the corpse back & I felt bad for not hugging back because how could deny a happy and kind corpse a hug but I didn’t because it was gross, greenish and covered in slime. I found this odd, a bit disturbing and hilarious at the same time. Right after that dream that’s when I woke up with the excruciating migraine
I can’t wait watch the Oscars, I’m avoiding social media because I don’t want any spoilers. I am recording the ceremony and the E! red carpet. This is the first time in years that I haven’t stayed up to watch , time difference sucks because here it’ll be 3am when the show starts. I hope Jared Leto wins he’s just so hot with his long ombre hair!