This is the day I fell apart. Unreservedly.
I woke in the morning with this feeling of emergency in my whole being. As though it was imperative to exit my body. I wanted to throw my life into the hands of another, but who… when I walk this path alone now. I had failed. Defeated by my own wild un-containable emotions. I had not eaten for days, my mouth was dry, brain foggy. My body was shutting down.
It became a matter of life and death so I left my house and got the help, I felt I needed at that point in time.